Set A Fire

"Set a fire down in my soul 

that I can't contain, that I can't control 

I want more of you God

I want more of you God." 

 I'm currently at the O'Hare airport in Chicago (I may still be on a plane that just landed) on my way to Monterrey, Mexico, but I've had these lyrics running through my head on repeat for the last day. We sang it in church yesterday morning and something within me felt it. I would have been content with singing those lyrics over and over again and calling that the church service. Even with my conservative Baptist background, I was on the verge of raising my hands. I didn't, but I was oh so close. I have nothing against hand-raising. I understand the concept. For me, it's something I didn't grow up with and have only done a handful of times in my life so am very tentative when I do. It will come with time though. Ok, moving on- this isn't a post about hand-raising.

In a little over an hour, I will be on the flight taking me to Monterrey. For those of you that don't know, I applied and was chosen through work to go on a mission trip. I have been out of the country once, but did not go for missions. The company does trips both in and out of the US. When I applied to go on this trip, I requested all of the international trips because I wanted that experience (and if the trip is free to me, even better :) ). I wanted out of my comfort zone and everything I know for a chance to make a difference in others' lives as well as grow in my walk with The Lord. I was chosen and here I am, sitting at the airport waiting for what I'm told will be a life-changing experience. 

I'll be honest here (I feel like I say that a lot in my blogs). I'm not sure I'm ready for this. I've been so consumed with work (we've been in the middle of renovations and resetting the store), spending time with my boyfriend, J, and friends, and life in general that I haven't had much time to sit down and prepare for what I'm about to experience. I don't want to go just to be able to say I went. I want this trip to truly touch my life. 

As the time nears for the plane to board, these lyrics are the prayer of my heart for this trip. This trip isn't about me. It's about God becoming more and moving in and through me in ways I'd never imagine. I want to see more of Him.